Tuesday, June 28, 2016

The Internal Struggle

I think I have made it pretty clear through this blog that I believe in God and His Son Jesus Christ.  Part of being a believer is trusting and relying fully on God to work things out in all aspects of life.  It is knowing that everything will be all right even if things do not appear as such.  Everything is a blessing or at least that's the way I see it.

However, here is the dilemma when it comes to my love life.  I have had an internal struggle as to whether I should trust God to send me a man or pick one for myself.  The reason for this mental tug of war is because I fear that God would send me someone that does not fit my criteria of attractiveness, personal appearance, education, manners or worse there will be no man for me at all thus no marriage.

Monday, June 20, 2016

To Change A Mockingbird

Recently, I have been implementing changes in my life.  Before the end of 2015, I made a declaration to myself that I would make adjustments in my life, but occasionally I would slip up and have to start over again.

Now, months later with a better handle on things I realize that the reason I struggled in the beginning was because although I was attempting to change my habits, the one thing I neglected to change was my mindset.  I thought I could continue doing the same things and placing myself in the same situations all the while telling myself that I wanted to change, but not allowing for change to occur.  I could resist the impulses for a little while, but until I revised my thinking towards the change I wanted to make I would continue to fall short.

Monday, June 6, 2016

Easy Come, Easy Go!

There was a gentlemen that use to work in the same building as me and almost daily we would see each other and exchange pleasantries.  He would attempt to strike up further conversation with me, but often I had tunnel vision and would give him a hello, smile and wave and carry on with my day.  I wasn't being rude just preoccupied with other thoughts.

This type of interaction between us went on for months and then the day came when the agency I worked for was moving to a new location and since he worked at a different agency he was not going to relocate with me.  The morning of the move he got on the elevator with me and engaged me in conversation.  I told him that I am a writer and he told me that he writes music.  I gave him my business card and told him to read my blog.