Monday, October 2, 2017

Relighting The Fire

Being a writer was something that I proudly would proclaim to anyone that would ask, but a few months ago it started to become something I barely could say in a moderate tone.  Or if by chance someone else mentioned that I write I was more inclined to shy away from the association rather than lift my face with a beaming smile. 

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Chapter Four

I was beginning to feel like a failure with each Sunday that passed and no new content to post.  I would sit down to write and the words just were not coming to me.  Even though I was feeling defeated I respect my readers too much to put out material that I know is weak and crappy just for the sake of being "consistent".  So, needless to say this hiatus was unexpected and unplanned.

As the weeks passed I started to search as to why I couldn't find the words and all the while my zeal for writing started to fade.  I started to doubt myself and my talent.  It was in this brief absence that I discovered that I was being ungrateful.  More so ungrateful when it came to my relationship than with writing.

Ungrateful - not feeling or showing gratitude.

Sunday, April 2, 2017

Chapter Three

One night my man and I were out at the movies and during the previews he made a comment that I did not like and I was a little peeved with him.  A few minutes passed and I decided that his comment was not that big of a deal that I should allow it to ruin our night by fighting.  So, I tugged on his arm gently and nudged him playfully to indicate that I wasn't mad anymore.

We probably have all heard the phrase "pick and choose your battles".  Well, that was one of those times.  Arguments and disagreements are going to occasionally occur in relationships and I think it is normal to a certain degree.  In the short time my man and I have been getting to know one another and become a couple we have had quite a few disagreements to put it mildly. 

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Chapter Two

A wonderful and intelligent man thought that I was just too precious to get away so he made our relationship official.  The interesting thing is in the almost three year time frame of my singleness I had developed certain habits unbeknownst to me and once discovered I couldn't continue them, being one half of a couple.   

In this chapter I am going to write about one habit in particular. 

Sunday, March 19, 2017

Chapter One

You all may have noticed that I haven't posted in a few weeks.  Well, there is something that only a few people know and I am excited to finally announce it to the world. 

Monday, February 13, 2017

Commentary About A YouTube Video

A few days ago I watched a video on YouTube of an old episode of Divorce Court that aired a few years ago.  The couple was married for five years and were getting a divorce.  I normally don't watch divorce shows because I do not believe in divorce, at least not in the casual way it is treated today.  Anyway, when the judge asked the wife her reason for wanting a divorce, the woman replied that her husband was "too nice."  The judge and the audience were baffled. 

The "complaints" this woman had about her husband to a normal person sounded ridiculous.  She stated that he would tell her he loved her at least twice a week and that he caused her to gain weight because he would cook full course meals for her not just during normal meal hours, but at 2:00 in the morning if she were hungry.  The more this woman spoke the more appalled everyone in the courtroom became.

Sunday, February 5, 2017

Just Like Home

There was a guy that I was friends with and knew for many years.  After graduating from our separate colleges, we started to hang out as friends and nothing more.  At one point we went more than five years without communicating with one another, not because we had a falling out, but because were living our separate lives.  A few months ago, we reconnected and started to hang out again, but this time it was different because he confessed that he wanted to date me.  I wasn't interested in dating him and only saw him as a friend. 

We had a few little disagreements in the past, but this time we were really having arguments. One night before him and I met up I noticed that mentally I was making a list of topics not to discuss or hope wouldn't come up through the course of our evening.  No hot button items that could quickly turn our nice evening into raised voices in public and result in me storming out of an establishment (which happened twice).

Sunday, January 29, 2017

Working On Consistency

Last week one of my 2017 goals faltered a bit.  Before the new year, I made several goals and one of them is to post to my blog once a week every Sunday.  Well, last week I missed posting.  I wish I could say that I was wrapped up doing something exciting like I've found a new love or off exploring exotic lands, but nope, I was at home struggling with something to write. 

Sunday, January 15, 2017

No Turning Back

One day I overheard a man and a woman having a conversation about romantic relationships.  The woman was talking about a past situation with an ex-boyfriend.  The man asked the woman, that if it were possible to go back in time would she have stayed and did things differently within her past relationship.  After a few minutes of deliberation the woman said, yes.  As the conversation ended I posed that same question to myself.

If I could control time would I go back to my last relationship and do things differently?  I mulled  over that question in my mind repeatedly throughout my day and analyzed it from every possible angle. 

Sunday, January 8, 2017

The Feeling of Peace

I've experienced the feeling of peace on many occasions, but I want to write about this one time in particular.  In our day-to-day lives we don't really think about peace until chaos begins to overwhelm us.  Peace is one of those things that you don't realize is missing until it is gone.

Last summer, I was on a plane and one thing you should know about me is I do not like to fly.  I do not necessarily have a fear of flying but I think about all the things that can go wrong that could have me possibly plummeting to the ground.  The only reason I do fly is because it is a fastest mode of transportation.  I suspect the reason for such awful thoughts is because I do not fly often and therefore have not developed a level of comfort with flying.

Sunday, January 1, 2017

Don't Want To Be Untitled

When a man tells me that he doesn't like titles, I take that as my cue to run NOT walk to the nearest exit.  I like titles.  Titles can keep the interaction between persons organized and free from confusion.  There is no guessing game as to whether we are dating moving toward a girlfriend/boyfriend status (although very soon I will erase those terms from my vocabulary) or we are simply just friends.  Without a title, a relationship is like grass blowing in the wind going in no certain direction or way.