Sunday, November 27, 2016

Writing and Love

Over a few weeks I started to ponder as to whether I should continue with writing and stop being patient with love altogether.  I know that I have written in past post to be patient and wait for love and I still agree with that idea, but I am human and at times my emotions can get the best of me.  I become discouraged and impatient.  I start to feel like things are not working in my favor in a swift enough pace or on the occasion that I do meet someone I begin to think that I have found what I've been waiting for but when that prospect becomes dim it is enough to make a person want to abandon ship.

Sunday, October 23, 2016

The Retraction

Last Sunday, I wrote a post titled "Silent Goes The Text" in which I stated that I recently met a man and we were hanging out and even went on a date.  Then all of a sudden he up and stopped communicating with me. 

That Sunday night as I prepared to go to sleep the gentleman, that I wrote about [in the blog post], sent me a text message.  I coldly replied that he should read my latest blog post and I didn't hear from him again until a couple days later.  I received a phone call from him one evening and at first I was hesitant to answer, but I did.  We exchanged a hello and hey and by the cheerless tone of his voice I could tell that he had read my blog and he had.  There was a brief awkward silence, then he began to tell me what prevented him from contacting me.  With each word he spoke I immediately felt regret about what I had written for the world to see.

Sunday, October 16, 2016

Silent Goes The Text

I recently met a man who is a friend of a friend.  The mutual friend is a woman that I went to college with and a few weeks ago she texted me asking if she could give my number to her friend that lives in Maryland.  The guy she wanted to give my number to, I met a few months ago when we were all hanging out one night in D.C.  Not giving it too much thought I told her that she could give him my number because I didn't really expect anything more than just a cordial text and maybe the occasional suggestion to meet up that most likely wouldn't occur.  Come to find out I got more than that.

Monday, October 3, 2016

Just For The Heck Of It

You may notice that I don't post to my blog every week and some would consider that to be in poor taste of a would-be writerI want to be taken seriously as a writer and I feel that it is my obligation to post content that is both honest and sincere.  I don't like to force my writing, but instead have the words flow from my mind, into my fingertips and onto the screen in an organic manner.  Sometimes I don't have the motivation to write and I am not going to post mediocre content that I am not satisfied with just to reach an invisible quota as a "good writer".

Monday, September 12, 2016

Chicken

It was just a normal evening and I was making my way from work to home.  I was at the WMATA Metro station on the down escalator when I noticed a man a few steps ahead of me.  His body frame and a dark spot at the nape of his neck is what caught my attention.  I wondered to myself as to whether his face was just as attractive as everything else.  So, when the escalator reached the bottom, I maneuvered through the crowd of commuters to get a glimpse of this gentleman's face.  I go through the faregate and onto the platform and there he is.  I walk by him and glance up and yes, he was cute.  However, I simply shrugged it off as one of those random times when we encounter someone really attractive, similar to finding paper money on the ground.

About a day or so later, one morning, I was at Starbucks waiting for either a venti very berry hibiscus or green tea lemonade (I can't remember) and there he was, the attractive man from the escalator.  He was waiting for his caffeinated drink.  I started formulating in my mind what I should say to him or if I should even approach him at all, but nothing was coming to mind.

The reason I couldn't find anything to say is because I am accustom to men approaching me first and not the other way around.  Therefore I am more prepared for the follow up instead of initiating.

Monday, August 22, 2016

John 3:16

Sometimes in the morning I text Bible verses to my friends, but a few years ago I would have been very hesitant to do something like that.  Not because I was not a believer, but because I didn't feel that I was the best example of someone that should be a follower of Jesus Christ.  I have always been a believer, but just not as bold for Christ.  I am stepping out and being bold for Christ now because He was bold for me and all of us, dying on the cross for our sins.

Monday, July 25, 2016

Mind Your Business

A couple weeks ago someone told me about an article they read about two sisters.  For the sake of this post I am going to rename the sisters, Kate and Julie.  The main focus of the article was that Julie has been married to her husband for twenty-five years and her husband has only worked two years out of the entire marriage.  The other sister, Kate disapproves of the work situation in her sister's marriage and often complains.

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Recognizing Growth

When I was in my mid- to-late 20s, I would go to the club and I honestly enjoyed the attention I would receive from men.  I mean, everyone likes to feel wanted, right?  Guys would attempt to flatter me with compliments and the stares I would get as I passed by with the occasional subtle arm grab to signal that they wanted my attention in return. 

Oh! I haven't even gotten to the dancing part.  The way men ogled me as I moved my hips on the dance floor to the latest 'trap' song blaring through the speakers.  Or how I would imagine in my mind that the rapper, Wale was speaking about me in his song Clappers "shawty got a big ol' butt, oh yeah".  It made me feel good knowing that all those men saw me as attractive and desirable.

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

The Internal Struggle

I think I have made it pretty clear through this blog that I believe in God and His Son Jesus Christ.  Part of being a believer is trusting and relying fully on God to work things out in all aspects of life.  It is knowing that everything will be all right even if things do not appear as such.  Everything is a blessing or at least that's the way I see it.

However, here is the dilemma when it comes to my love life.  I have had an internal struggle as to whether I should trust God to send me a man or pick one for myself.  The reason for this mental tug of war is because I fear that God would send me someone that does not fit my criteria of attractiveness, personal appearance, education, manners or worse there will be no man for me at all thus no marriage.

Monday, June 20, 2016

To Change A Mockingbird

Recently, I have been implementing changes in my life.  Before the end of 2015, I made a declaration to myself that I would make adjustments in my life, but occasionally I would slip up and have to start over again.

Now, months later with a better handle on things I realize that the reason I struggled in the beginning was because although I was attempting to change my habits, the one thing I neglected to change was my mindset.  I thought I could continue doing the same things and placing myself in the same situations all the while telling myself that I wanted to change, but not allowing for change to occur.  I could resist the impulses for a little while, but until I revised my thinking towards the change I wanted to make I would continue to fall short.

Monday, June 6, 2016

Easy Come, Easy Go!

There was a gentlemen that use to work in the same building as me and almost daily we would see each other and exchange pleasantries.  He would attempt to strike up further conversation with me, but often I had tunnel vision and would give him a hello, smile and wave and carry on with my day.  I wasn't being rude just preoccupied with other thoughts.

This type of interaction between us went on for months and then the day came when the agency I worked for was moving to a new location and since he worked at a different agency he was not going to relocate with me.  The morning of the move he got on the elevator with me and engaged me in conversation.  I told him that I am a writer and he told me that he writes music.  I gave him my business card and told him to read my blog.

Monday, May 9, 2016

Broke Man!

In today's society, materialism is high and everyone wants to compete with one another over the latest fashion labels, technology, events (parties, trips, concerts, etc.) and the list goes on.  Everyone wants to have the most likes on Instagram, retweets on Twitter and whatever approval of self gratification there is for SnapChat (I don't have SnapChat). 

There seems to be a societal disdain for the ordinary.  Everyone is striving for the "extra" ordinary and to be flashy just to impress people they don't like or people on the other side of an app that they may never meet.  So, if a person is not only striving to keep up with the Joneses, but the Kardashians as well, it could be hard for them to date.  The average person just doesn't have the monetary means.

Monday, May 2, 2016

Do People Want Love or Options?

I don't always want to think about love and relationships, but it never seems to fully escape my mind considering that I maintain a blog that is about, well, love and relationships.  The more and more I think about the subject, I ask myself, do people actually want to fall in love and be in a relationship?

In the United States, when it comes to marriage the divorce rate is so high that nearly half all marriages will end in divorce.  Then, there are websites like Ashley Madison, which encourage married people to have affairs with the company tagline being "Life is short. Have an affair."

Sunday, April 3, 2016

Not Helping, Then Hurting

I am starting to feel like I am getting to a point in my life where if something or someone is not helping me then it is hurting me.  That may seem like an extreme to some, but it is very clear to me.  I haven't always had the mindset that allowed me to view things in such a way, but the more that I am attempting to become successful in any area of my life I am noticing that things (habits) and people fall into one of these categories.

Sunday, March 27, 2016

The Best Relationship

Normally, my blog posts are about relationships and love in regards to interactions between women and men, but today I want to write about the best relationship that I have and it is with Jesus Christ.

I have always accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, but I have not always been obedient to His Word.  I didn't always apply the teachings of The Bible to my own life and would pick and choose what I wanted to follow and when I wanted to follow it. 

I am now transitioning to a place in my life where I want to be a better and true follower of Jesus Christ.  Not just talk it, but walk it.  I admit it is difficult because I have to give up things that I once thought was harmless or didn't think was contrary to God.  Now I see that the things I once bragged about so boldly or did with little regard for God was detrimental to my place in God's Kingdom for eternity.

Am I now a saint or a person without flaws? Of course not, The Bible says, for everyone has sinned and fall short of God's glorious standard - Romans 3:23.  I am not exempt from sin, but the difference between me and the world is that I know that I can ask for forgiveness and God will forgive me.  I am a constant work in progress.

God loves everyone and wants all of us to accept His one and only Son Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior. 

So, if you are reading this and you want to make Jesus Christ a part of your life, then no matter where you are, what you've done or how bad of a person you think you are -- Jesus Christ can be your Savior right here and now.

Ask Jesus to come into your heart and ask for forgiveness of your sins and I assure you that you will have the best relationship too.

Remember, Jesus is real.  Jesus lived, died and rose from the grave to save us all.

HAPPY EASTER!

Thanks for reading!
(John 3:16)

Sunday, March 6, 2016

Need To Know ASAP

When I first meet someone in a romantic way I tell them straight up what my expectations are  and what I am looking to get out of a relationship.  I have been told that this type of bluntness can scare a man away, but I, on the other hand, feel that this is a clear way to ensure that my time is not wasted nor his.

Sunday, February 14, 2016

All In The Mind

Occasionally, when I do meet a man and we start to communicate on a regular basis in a romantic way I get so excited that he could be "the one".  In my mind I fast forward pass first dates, phone calls, texts and all the other little things that make a relationship and I start contemplating about hand holding and how him and I will regale family and friends with our how we met story.

Yeah, its that bad.

Sunday, January 24, 2016

I Wanted To Deny It

Despite what people may think when a relationship ends things can remain cordial between two people.  At least that has always been my perspective.  Especially when those two people have a history together like my last boyfriend and myself.   

My ex-boyfriend and I rarely talk to one another anymore because I have my life and he has his.  He even has a girlfriend.  This past Christmas him and I were texting each other somewhat catching up on each others lives and the question came up as to whether I was still single.

Sunday, January 10, 2016

You Decide: Pretty Lie Or Ugly Truth

A few days ago, someone I follow on Twitter tweeted the question: What you want, a pretty lie or the ugly truth?  I replied that I would want the ugly truth.

I always prefer honesty to deceit even if the candor of someone's words is going to hurt my feelings.  I would rather someone tell me the truth and I feel the pang of sorrow for a little while then to be oblivious for a long period of time because someone chose to lie to me.